A new life
I still feel very betrayed , hurt and sad. Confused and alone.
I know I have my friends and family, I know it will get better.
It's not worth it, fight for someone who doesn't wanna fight for you.
I know that now. Im going to be strong.
So. This is the last time im writing in this blog.
This blog were suppose to be about my life in australia, now it's been for 13 months, almost 14,
but now it's over. Im leaving this as a memory instead.
But don't be sad, I'll open up my other blog instead, when I've change design etc.
A new life, a new blog. Sounds good.
Cheers. <3
maybe I should
Back in sweden, sure, I love to be here with friends and family, but still, my heart is not here with me.
Someone stole my heart a year ago, he didn't give it back when he sent me home.
I kinda wish that he did, because then I wouldn't feel this way, and I would be happy, but Im not.
Everything is so hard.
I would, and I want to..
I wish that I knew what you want. I dont.
I know you love me, but I dont know if its 100% or 50%.
50 is not good enough.
I desurv better, maybe sounds selfish, but I do.
I was thinking. Since Im not in australia anymore, maybe i should quit this blog, shut it down or something.
not easy
I feel crap, Im sad, confused, worried and... heartbroken..
I dont know what to do, or what to say, it's not easy.
I wish someone had answers. Answers for me.
This is my 3rd day at home. =/
I miss him so so much, my heart is aching and I cant get it to stop.
I want him here with me. Hold me, snuggle me and kiss me.
I want to hear "I love you" from him.
Im serious when Im saying that I dont know if i can live without him.
or HOW to live without him.
I need him in my life, I love him like i've never loved anyone..
maybe im pathetic, but it's hard. I don't know what to do.
I wanna go back, back to him. Right now. I cant be without him.
Spin
To hear - I love you , made my heart spin. I love you <3
It doesn't feel right
I have 4 days left in Aussie.. 4 days.
I can't believe it and I don't want to believe it. I'm sad, hurt, frustrated, confused. I can't really stop crying either. I don't want this , but its for the best I guess.
I'm going to try enjoy the weekend with me best friends and beer and BBQ, first some footy..
Sweden, I'll see you soon.
Why cant life be easy?
I'll miss you. Your smile. Your eyes.
Your hugs. Your warmth. Your kisses.
Falling asleep next to you. Hold your hand. Talk to you about everything. Laugh with you. Snuggle days in bed with you. Live life with you. Being close to you. Everything. <3
Life
You know, life doesn't always turn out as you want it to. You can fight for something and really want it to work, but if the feelings aren't there, you can't do more. It's just the way life is :/
I'm a little bit confused and sad, but I'm alright. I know that this will turn out good and soon I'll be happy again.
You'll always be there <3
Tired soul
Tuesday.
I have to say that waking up between 4-5am every morning is hard. Drive to work and stay awake. Puh, your getting really tired but still I wish I had a full time job. This only working in the morning and some afternoon is tiering.
I'm climbing on the walls during the days, that's how bored I am .. Since I'm not doing anything I'm getting more and more lazy. Blah give me a second job please.. :/
Apparently I got the day off tomorrow. My kid crashed with his bike today ( at his birthday ) and they are now at the hospital. So, what am I going to do?
I guess some washing, some cleaning, the gym.. Catch up with my series. Haha.
Yep, my life is not very exciting right now, to be honest, it's boring. It sucks.
I want a job, money.. But, not easy when your not allowed to work.
Monday again
I hate Monday's. I always gets to little sleep between Sunday n Mondays.. Uh tired. But, I'm at work watching tv :)
I'm starving but I'm waiting for the kids to wake up :)
The weekend was good. Awesome game of footy :) can't wait for next game..
